addiction stands alone

in favor of the behavior

first alone

then afraid

seems so far away

how old was i

         how bold was i

saving all that turn around love

for someone not welcome

who only loves

the needle high

full of saline

and       salience

racing embracing reticence

         reverence

karma and

         coincidence

more cocaine can temporarily

remedy

         the situation

the conflagration

uncontrollable addiction

affliction

the choice disease

of sons

and daughters

mothers and fathers

hooked on heroin

low taxes and ice-water

tactics can deflect impact

create impasse

understand

how to make glass

in little towns

leaves brown

shade controlled

by small amounts of

doomsdayers

and big money players

who don’t believe a word

they say

just throw that shit out there

to get in your way

to move some cash

over and back

til they got it all

and a heart attack

this fall

we have to find out

if you know

if it shows

which way the wind blows the staylows

catastrophic circumstances

not little ones

this drinkin’s killing me

i need the help

but i still drink from the top shelf

funny thing is

i ended up being addicted

to propane

and recidivism

three months at the minimum

addiction stands alone

ignoring the stigma

                     the leprosy and

libby zion