31 May 2011

little doses of bad timing


the child was stillborn
      that was more than he could bear
tiny little fingers
 black matted curling hair

why doesn’t it breathe?

took a long time
      and he could not forget
how life was an advantage when
  the air was thick and wet

why did it take so long to see?

the most ordinary things make marks    in time   mistaken for a memory connecting broken lines   move the past to the beginning   forget the history    can you explain possession     can you turn and look at me 

the rest was made up
       like the book he wouldn’t write
talked through pages
   needed more light

what was the difference in ‘had to be’?

this is after
                                                                                            a simple    thinning   rain
                                                               made meager of example
now the memory was stained


little doses of bad timing




Woman in Street Clothes, Portrait of Ellen Andrée, 1879, pastel on paper  Edgar Degas

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